need help deciding if i should stay in raleigh or go to wilmington this weekend :

Happiness is something i lack nowadays. I have had such a short-temper lately which is very unusual for me, and i know what is causing the problem except i have yet to do anything about it. I haven't had any emotional issues for years and now they are all coming back.


My anger is once again becoming a problem in my life.

i can run a mile in under 8 minutes and 30 seconds :D i haven't been able to do that since 4th grade :|

I have been in love with this song ever since i first heard it. awesomeness all over :D

LISTEN NOW

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
(if possible. If not, I'll say something that only makes sense to me.)
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours

yes, this post will be about, the lawler drama creator Lori. i had no anger towards her, just the fact that she was annoying, and always wanted attention, kept me from liking her. Until today that is. so, i was angry at her DAVE, HER BABY BOO, HER LOVER FOR FUCKING LIFE, because he has become a complete asshole ever since he started dating Lori. Now what started today was supposed to be a simple question, and thats it..... but it escalated to much more than it needed to, in my own opinion.

So i was playing ITG at Ten Pin Alley, when after i texted her asking the question "when is the next time dave is coming down?" the reply from lori was just "Why?" so i replied with because i wanted to punch him in the face for being a complete asshole. so then she goes off on me wondering why i have a reason to be pissed at him and she also included that she will kick my ass if i do punch dave and he will also kick my ass. so after recieving that i decide to call her asking if she had something to say to me and she asked again why i deserve to be pissed at him so i told her because of dave going off on someone else who didnt deserve it was reason enough (reasoning of my anger towards dave: I DONT NOT LIKE PEOPLE WHO ARE ASSHOLES, there is a line between being honest and being an ignorant immature dick.). so she told me i had no reason to get involved. so i hung up after saying okay, after she said dave had apologized to that person he went off on. but that still does not give a reason to be a dick to someone else for no reason. BUT, i invoked it further because i was angry at the time and wanted to just go ahead and ruin any possibility of friendship with her. so i texted her telling her to have fun trying to kick my ass, her and dave both, saying it will be funny seeing them try, and shortly after that i texted her again saying itll be surprising if they both actually backed that up (kicking my ass). so she replies with and i quote, "Oh like you fucking will? You wont." now..... a little fact about me, i dont like being told that i will or wont do something, because, it pisses me off like nothing else. being told that sent me over the edge and replied with, "Have you known me the last few months? ive changed completely if someone deserves to be called out ill do it to their fucking face so dont try me bitch". soooo she replied with "oh wow it would be SO hard to do that. MY BAD. Next time you see me, go ahead and hit me, I fucking dare you to." now i dont know how it transitioned from me kicking the shit out of dave, to hitting her, but i went with it sadly, not thinking at the time. Me: "alright ill admit this has gone too far but if you say its alright then eh ill take it if it has to come to that" NOW, before anyone starts judging i sent another text taking back what i said before because its against my morale to hit women. so she sent back a text saying "just do it next time i see you, seriously do it. hit me, i really fucking dare you." now after cooling down a bit, i started to think about what i said and thought it was immature. so i replied with "ill change my response to something more mature. i wont hit you but ill definitely call you out next time i see you" and her reply, "then do it."


so in all honesty this did go way too far than it needed to, i should have backed off after calling her. Now im not going to say "HEY, LISTEN, THIS IS THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE STORY" im just saying this is my side of the story, percieve it as you would like to.

BUT, other than that, playing ITG was a lot of fun today, played a bunch of new songs on meh flash drive, and played some silent hill. so it was an alright day :O

YAY :D:D:D:D I'm excited about graduating and being done with high school, but not excited about the fucking ceremony.....have to sit there for three hours DOING NOTHING >:| and ill probably be sneezing when i go up there and the photo will be of me sneezing on my principal =( it would be hilarious if it did happen though XD

so in other news i went to get my graduation tickets today and the guy holding him was being a prick and didnt believe i had enough credits to graduate D: i wanted to slap him. so i had to run around the whole damn school getting notes from my teachers saying i can graduate and that i passed their classes and then he still didnt believe me so i had to go to the conselor's office and get him to say i can graduate :| it was hell and it was hot and i didnt want to be there DX but yar.

i dont know what im going to do this weekend, depends if im sicker than i am today on the weekend. but either way ill come up with something :O hangin out with kitty on sunday or when she gets back from raleigh :o

BORED and about to go to school, TODAY IS GOING TO BE GREAT after school that is :D..... i think =o